I’m struggling to write this weekend. Although I’ve commented on other blogs (like this one here) that the tragedy in Haiti should not be reason to put a halt to what is going on inside our hearts and heads as writers, I’m still struggling. It just feels “wrong” to write about anything that I’d choose to write about. And then I wonder if I’m just worried what OTHER people will think of me if I write about such frivolous drama. I like to think I’m doing my part in aiding the horror in Haiti by donating a bit of money and attaching a button to my blog where people can find even more ways to help. But it’s not enough. Nothing is enough. My heart is aching for everyone in this distraught county where the devastation is unfathomable. I’m in awe of the number of bloggers who are pulling together to raise money. It just confirms for me what an amazing community this truly is.
But I need to write. I need to write something because this is where I come to relieve stress, frustration and sadness. I watched TV 24/7 in the days following 9/11. That was before I had kids and it was what I NEEDED to do to get through it. I knew far too many people affected by it since I was living and working in NYC at the time and it made me feel a bond with the community by knowing every single detail. I cannot do that with this earthquake. My kids are around. There are too many kids involved and affected. Although I know no one personally affected, my heart is hurting just as badly. I’m avoiding the images this time instead of having them engraved in my memory. I just can’t bare the sadness. So instead, I’m coming here to hide.
So, I’ve decided to take this opportunity to thank my friends who have made me feel all warm and fuzzy by giving me blog awards in the past couple of weeks and then bring others the same happiness by paying it forward. Important in the scheme of things? Absolutely not. Something that may pass along a little cheer? I hope so.
I actually got this award TWICE this month! First Shell at Things I can’t Say gave it to me early in the month. Shell is a newer friend in the blogosphere and I’ve loved having her as one of my readers and I adore her blog as well. She often makes me laugh about the things that happen to her in her day to day life and she is also a refreshing read, because she calls it as it is, straight and simple, and I can so often relate to her posts.
More recently Liz at But Then I Had Kids honored me with the award too. I’d say Liz was my first friend in this world. On so many of my early posts she’d write such supportive words and in the days when I was about ready to give up… she convinced me to stay. And I did. I feel like I owe her for handing me this world of “happy”. Plus, her blog is amazing. Most posts I feel like I could have written myself because I have been there or could see myself there. And more importantly, I think my daughter is going to marry her son. Although it might be a scary relationship with two such hard headed, precocious personalities, they seem at these early ages, to be a perfect match. Thank you Shell and Liz. You made my day with these awards.
My job now in receipt of this award is to list some things that make me happy and pass it along to some of my other blog favorites. So, over the next few days, I will be starting my posts with something that makes me happy. It should aid in bringing some “happy” to my blog amidst the sadness elsewhere. Those that make me happy in my everyday reading and I’d like to pass the award on to are:
– Corinne at Trains Tutus and Twizzlers: Her photos alone absolutely make me smile. And when she adds her words to the photos… magic.
– Jen and Sarah at Momalom: I nod my head furiously as I read their posts. It’s as if they are pulling the words right out of my head.
– NDM at Not Drowning, Mothering: She’s HYSTERICAL. I’ve passed her awards before and I will continue to because she really is That Funny.
Corinne at Trains Tutus and Twizzlers passed me this Lemonade Stand award for being a blogger that shows great Attitude and Gratitude. Wow. I like to think of myself as someone with attitude, the good kind of course. And I love that she thinks I show gratitude… because I do. I have tremendous gratitude for all I have (even if many of my posts don’t sound that way). Corinne is fabulous. ALL of her posts make me smile and many make me cry. She has touched my heart with her words. Her kids are too precious and the love she shows through her pictures and words is tremendous and heart warming. I am truly honored to have received this award from her.
And I pass this award along to:
Ambrosia at Here Every Moment Counts: I adore her writing. She has made me truly THINK. She shares her happy moments and her painful ones too and I’ve shut my computer down after reading her posts still thinking about how I relate.
Aidan at Ivy League Insecurities: There is no doubt she’s a “writer”. Every post she writes is truly a masterpiece. Beautiful, artful… amazing. I look forward to reading her blog every day.
Michelle at Momma’s Pixie Dreams: This is the newest blog I’ve started following. And so far, I’m taken. She writes beautifully and has struck a cord with me. Please go check her out!
I feel better now. I’ve spent the past hour away from the news. Away from the tweets. Away from “reality”. It’s what I needed. It’s why I have this place. I think it’s part of the reason we all have this place. So thank you for letting me write my words in these days of sadness, because it’s what I need to do.